The Trauma-Go-Round

Ever found yourself screaming at the top of your lungs—so loud even your own brain was like, “Girl, please”? Ever been so deep in emotional chaos that you couldn’t even remember what set you off in the first place?

It’s like your mind floats outside your body, watching you unravel in slow motion. You know it’s happening. You know it’s destructive. And yet… you can’t stop. The merry-go-round of tears, accusations, and emotional whiplash keeps spinning—wrecking your relationships and chewing up your self-worth.

Trauma Doesn’t Knock—It Breaks the Door Down

My story probably doesn’t match yours. In fact, I guarantee it doesn’t. But I do know pain. I know fear. I know what it’s like to stare down the barrel of your own trauma and whisper, “I don’t know how to do this.”

I know what it’s like to not trust anyone—especially yourself. To feel like healing is some mythical destination reserved for people with less baggage.

For years, I didn’t realize trauma was the thing holding me back. I just thought I was broken. Turns out, my brain was doing exactly what it was wired to do: protect me.

 When Love Feels Like a Threat

If you grew up like I did—with a sexually abusive father and an alcoholic mother—then you know what it’s like to associate love with danger. “I love you” doesn’t feel safe. It feels like a setup. Like the beginning of the end.

So when someone says they care, your body braces for impact. You sabotage. You spiral. You scream. Not because you’re dramatic—but because your nervous system is still stuck in survival mode.

The echoes of our past don’t stay in the past. They show up in our relationships, our reactions, our rage.

If you’ve ever lashed out at your partner and then thought, Wait… was that even about them?   You’re not alone.

Childhood trauma is sneaky. It lurks in the corners of your mind, waiting to pounce. It hijacks your emotions, your logic, your ability to stay grounded. And suddenly, you’re fighting battles that started decades ago—with someone who didn’t even sign up for the war.

Breaking the Cycle (Without Breaking Yourself)

Here’s the part I want you to hear loud and clear: You are not doomed. You are not broken. You are not too much.

You have the power to break the cycle. To rewrite your story. To give yourself the love and care you were always worthy of.

Understanding how your past trauma shows up in your present behavior? That’s the first step. And it’s a brave one.

Healing isn't Glamorous

This healing journey? It’s not cute. It’s not quick. It’s not something you can DIY in a weekend.

But it’s worth it.

Every time you pause before reacting… Every time you name a trigger instead of becoming it… Every time you choose compassion over chaos… You’re healing.

You’re stepping out of the trauma trap and into a life where you’re defined not by what broke you—but by how you rebuilt.

So come with me. Let’s walk through the mess together. Let’s scream less, breathe more, and learn to love without fear.

Follow along for more truth-telling, soul-healing, and the kind of content that doesn’t sugarcoat the hard stuff. Because healing isn’t pretty—but it’s powerful.

From my messy heart to yours,